Lets talk about weight

Since January is nearly upon is, it’s only right that we talk about that diet i’m sure we will all be starting after the festive indulgence. Now, I have a rule that the January diet doesn’t start on the 1st or even the 2nd, because I am never organised to start eating healthy, let alone ready after new years festivities, so I normally pick in around the 5th to stop eating the junk! Lets talk a little about weight.

Weight….this word has plagued me for the best part of my life, to make a long story short, I was a normal weight kid and not really all that interested in food, which was something that worried my parents ALOT and I remember many an argument over how much I needed to eat before I could leave the table, it was a battle that went on for some time until I figured if I just ate the bloody food I could go play. If you ask my parents about this they will tell you the story, because they love telling this story, of the time I hide food behind the refrigerator so I didn’t have to eat it, when they finally figured out what I was doing, the amount of food they found behind the fridge was shocking, that was the turning point to where I was watched like a hawk.  Getting into my teenage years I did find a love for food and had more weight than the norm, the thing is, at that time I was not considered overweight, I was quiet normal and I was a swimmer, in the pool 5 to 6 times a week, so I was fit and healthy, but I still seemed to be slightly bigger framed than others, or at least that is what it felt like and the cruel kids would call me fat….kids being kids I suppose, actually I am being too kind, they were arsehole teenagers who should have known better!! From teenage into my early 20s I did put on weight and I was considered overweight, not majorly, but as any young woman would, it did bother me,  I could have easily turned it around and at some points I did manage to lose weight and be somewhat happy.

But that is when things, more specifically my weight, took a turn for the worst, I went through some personal emotional times when life was hard and I ate every single emotion I felt. Naturally the weight piled on very quickly, binge eating and gaining nearly 6 stone in the space of about 2 years or so, putting me in the obesity bracket. Now fast forward to where I am today, I am 31 and over the hard emotional times, in fact I am quiet happy with how my life has turned out and I am comfortable about who I am as a person, but I never managed to loose the weight I put on in that hard time, I have managed to maintain in around the same weight for the past number of years. I feel like this should be the happiest time of my life, but my weight really really brings me down. Never mind the fact I am nearing child bearing age, being in a happy relationship for the past number of years it is the natural course of life, but I feel like I don’t want to start motherhood like this.

So where am I at today, well I feel like divine intervention took over! It was early November and I was talking to my Mum about my weight and I told her I really didn’t know what it was going to take to loose the weight, I’ve tired everything, and I mean everything, slimming world, weight watchers, unislim, celebrity slim, cambridge diet, new you plan, diet pills, calorie counting and each of these multiple times and nothing worked, nothing clicked, nothing felt right. You hear people say it just clicked for me one day and lost a baby elephant and so many times I thought I was having that moment others felt, it was clicking, it was finally happening for me, only for it all to fall around me.

Until one day mid November 2017 I went to the hospital for an appointment I was waiting 18 months for, to see if I have sleep apnea, which I am still waiting on more tests, but it just so happened the hospital were running a trail, some medical trial, for overweight people, it was completely drug free and entailed a 1200 calorie diet alone with 2 weekly sessions on a TENS machine and regular blood tests . I thought why not! There was one spot left on the trial and the Doctor thought I was the perfect candidate….I tired to not take offence to that!!! 6 week later it was Christmas and I was down 1 stone. Magic!   It didn’t click for me, it just felt natural. I naturally ate less, and as the doctor explained its caused by the position of the TENS machine it mixes the signals from the stomach to the brain and naturally reduces your appetite. And it works, so much so I only put on 2 pounds over the Christmas, when I would normally put on a minimum of 5 pounds. My first blood work showed a few issues namely a very low iron level, which would explain the constant tiredness, along with low folic acid, high cholesterol and some inflammation markers. So doctor had me on iron and folic acid tablets which worked wonders for the energy levels and I am waiting on results of the second blood tests to see if anything else improved. There is a few clinical studies I found when doing an internet search and my doctor is convinced this is the way forward to losing weight, that its all about the brain signals and controlling them.

So what is the next step, I have a 6 week break where they want to see if I can now lose weight by myself after which I will go back to be weighted and another round of blood tests so the next 6 weeks will tell if it has worked and I am confident at the moment I can do it but time will tell.

I know like many others how difficult weight loss is, if you are in the same boat you will understand the heartache it causes and the situations it ruins, I’ll talk more about that another time, but whatever you are doing, give it your best shot and if it doesn’t work please don’t be too hard on yourself and simply move onto the next thing.

Wishing you all the best, love, happiness and joy for 2018

Sharon xx

 

 

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